home sweet home

hehe yeap yeap, 11.30am bus, depart on time from Melaka, whole day also heavy rain la, so cold...... but who care la since I finally reach home already around 9pm just now hoho~ yeap, such long journey right? but biasa liao la

yo~ my cats~ wah why you all now so meat meat liao 1 geh? aiyak I though you all will miss me soooo much until slim slim, but I was wrong then, sigh.....; hey mum's cooking so nice la, really so nostalgic ler hehe; yo~yo~ my PC~ bro's altec lansing~ my PS2~ I'm home now! tadaima!!! :D

aiks...... whole thing macam no meaning 1 ler, all craps, sigh, nevermind la tomorrow go lake side there take some nice pic and upload them hehe, ciao for now~ Kingdom Hearts' time >^.^<

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yamca, 4th of gamma

yeap, as stated above, went yamca again, this time with Moses (another fox), Lawrence (hamster) , Chak (crow), and 2 other guys, hehehe we went zoo or something? =))

sorry har Moses, mafan you so much, if I knew then I won't ask you teman me go liao la..... made you walk here walk there, sorry sorry

btw, this Chak ko really geng la, talk talk talk about Matrix movies, walau don play play ah ppl ni Matrix pro lai ler, ppl wrote the story 1 ler =)) too bad I haven't watch, so know some don't know most of it, sigh, wait la I reach home use bro's PC watch *grins* yeah altec lansing hehe :D

oh ya also ngam ngam realize that actually our Sin Min class 5.1 punya Mr. Ricky Kuek Lian Ping is his friend's bf hehe, yeah go back can perli people liao loo, wait and see har Ricky :P

Lawrence, hmm............ I really look different w/out the orange color spec ah? hehe, sorry loo, a dino came yamca with you guys instead of leng luis hehe, paiseh paiseh, oh ya just now didn't really chat with you also ler, since we sat kinda far compared with me + Moses + Chak

hmmm.......... sigh, time flows like water huh, last night in Melaka, for Gamma sem 2, well, happy holidays~~

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yeah~ bye bye final :D

at last! my stupid final exam over liao lo, finally hehe, feel so refresh now *grins*

*look into the mirror* OMG I'm such a panda!!! T-T sigh, once reach home I must sleep like piggy already, now I don't feel like sleepy at all, over excited, of course la our nightmare KO already wor hehe

hmmm.......... what I'm gonna do for the limited time I left in Melaka here? shopping? no kaki plus no money liao la T-T... makan? eating my lunch now. yamca? aiya now still day time la =)), talk craps? who I'm gonna talk with since my roomate also going back hometown? ICQ? sien already la... anime? yes!!!! naruto 110-111 on hand hehe >'o'<, ok la watch naruto after I finish this crap here

yeap, I'm going back tomorrow noon hehe, but for sure at night only can reach SP liao la.... the so-called "Cepat Ekspress" is actually forever lambat 1, well-knowned fact right? Make sure I recharge my batteries else I'll bored to dead without my dear walkman then

well, since I said I found no reason joining the BBQ tonight, anything I can do ah other than YM ICQ anime mp3 forums yada yada, sigh......... no idea now

ok la, don't know what to write already, ciao~

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4++ in the morning

hmmmmmm............ can't sleep, shall I blame the coffee or myself since I slept too much this noon? :P

my TDB final paper coming really soon enough, 9o' clock in the morning, duh sien la, stupid final, sigh

can't wait for holidays, wanna go home and hugggggggg my cats >^.^< , miss them so much la, all so cute one hehe, and of course la I miss my family also la, wonder how long it's been since the last time I 'fight' with my own brother already hehe, yo bro~ what yar doing there now?

hey btw x-mas coming soon huh, wonder what shall I buy for friends..... but for sure bankrap again, hehe, hey but I like the feeling, exchange presents, celebrate with friends, talk craps togather, laughing togather.... etc, really feel so good I spent my Alpha's x-mas with x-housemates last time, exchanged presents, stayed up whole night sharing our dreams etc, oh ya even watched vcd (if not mistaken), since that time everyone also just came back from Alpha Sem 2 holiday hehe, fo of course will have even more topics to crap with lo =)

as for my Beta's x-mas........ man, that time I really thought I had to be alone, since something happened last time, reason = secret AGAIN heheh I'm so sly huh :D, but in the end seniors invited me to their BBQ party, and well, I DID try to enjoy myself there eventhough I still feel sad about the previous incident, I think all of them knew about it as well, sigh....... siapa yang banyak mulut sangat ni >.<, I remember back then, some of them really wanna korek info from me, but the tahan also, since I told them I wanna have a nice face there hehe...... thanks for being considerate

now, wonder what will happen on Gamma's :-? hehe, well, wait and see >^.^<

aiks, now don't say la, that's all for now I think, OK focus on my notes, hehe, goukaku suru!

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A song for elle

found this song from taiwanese forum hehe, from a guy to the girl he likes ;)

LeT's Go
我來秀一秀
這不是我的表演秀
只是我內心世界不停播的radio
想睡的快起來 快快的坐起來
千萬不要錯過這個歷史性的這一幕
而世界真奇妙 又地球真的非常小
誰也沒有預料 透過朋友介紹 加上平時禱告
我的白雪公主終於脫去神秘面罩
你的身影不停在我腦海跑
就像奧運聖火一直不停在燃燒
害我心裡撲通撲通撲通跳
逼我熱的脫下外套
鼓起勇氣不再害臊
start to design 追你的圈套
如果你沒跌進這善意的圈套
不管耶穌媽祖默罕默德玉皇大帝聖至麻原章恍宋七力都為我哀悼

好不好 好不好
作我的女朋友好不好
一切只要你的一聲好
我就和你吃飯吃到老
要不要 要不要
當我的little sweet要不要
一切只要你的一聲好
我就陪你陪到天涯海角

隨著秋後的寒意 冷風伴隨暗戀的涵義
射出一道溫暖強心劑
不斷編織的記憶 全都全都是天意
洋溢幸福的空氣 相互窺視的心已聯繫

我漸漸發現到 愛情就像瓶毒藥
在我內心處發酵 讓我不時在傻笑
我慢慢感覺到 地雷在體內引爆
有種衝動想大叫 告訴你我真的很可靠
我的身高沒有jordan高(那又怎樣那不怎麼樣)
我的職業不是老饕 但是我人真的很好
功能更不少 興趣is把你餵到飽(大家一起吃到飽)
專長替你穿外套(好暖)
疲倦了 給你來點慰勞
遇到麻煩....~我讓你依靠 讓你靠 沒什麼大不了 (這是任賢齊的老歌)
大不了 甚至無怨無悔幫你包書套
心中垃圾幫你掃一掃
你問我愛你有多深 (這個歌更老)
這麼深 冬天我也願意化作暖暖包 給你抱(這麼窩心)
就是因為我愛你這麼深

好不好 好不好
當我的女朋友好不好
一切只要你的一聲好
我就和你吃飯吃到老
要不要 要不要
作我的little sweet要不要
一切只要你的一聲好
我就陪你陪到天涯海角

隨著秋後的寒意 冷風伴隨暗戀的涵義
射出一道溫暖強心劑
不斷編織的記憶 全都全都是天意
洋溢幸福的空氣 相互窺視的心已聯繫

現在給妳1分鐘思考
30秒來打草稿 讓你決定好不好
妳是c加升記號 我是d加降記號
就在五線譜遇到 譜出完美e大調

愛情盡頭我們一起找
愛情電影我們一起導
靈異相片我們一起照
行行好 來個擁抱
這麼好的男人哪裡找 常在你我的心中

好不好 好不好
答應我好不好
要不要 要 不要
little sweet 要不要
只要一聲好 吃飯吃到老......

好不好 作我的女朋友好不好
一切只要妳的一聲好 我就陪妳陪到天荒地老

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Something from the past

<28-10-2004>
...........................
I get nothing, but heartache and tears
That's why I chose to run away
All I want is a new start, new life, and
Someone that will accept me for who I really am
I hate masks, yet I hate it even more
The fact you just can't face the truth,
When you finally see the silent hidden face of mine,
After all these years......

saw my 'poem' above when I view my friendster profile again, hmm..... it's been about a month huh, so fast, that time I was so down, so blue, I'll keep the reason as a secret hehe, but some of you already knew though

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About the Fox~

Last night (actually this very early morning la) Hamster asked me, how come I use Fox instead of Vixen since I'm a girl, hmmm..... how to answer this, actually I also not very sure ler, perhaps I always wanna be a boy :P but then the nick Fox really far more cooler than Vixen ler, plus errr..... you all know la, let it be manderin or cantonese when we talk about Vixen the others sure think about 'something' else ler.... "hu2 li2 jing1", sigh...... kasihan we all female from Fox families, sigh, I'm innocent one ler >x.x<

BTW, last night I really should find some spies and record down such exciting and rare event at burger stall there ler hehehehe >:D can't stop laughing =)) sorry har no offense or anything one har hehehe, sigh, guys really so syok har, can play like that, for us girls it's really soooooo hard to find people that willing to play with you like that lo, if near us got also might not same channel, sigh, lucky you guys

P/S: walau eh just now my mind really blank, die la computer graphic :((



* another photo, of course it's not by me la hehe, I like this 1, remind me of my oil painting hehe



* Hui Ping (girl in white), my old friend since standard 2, now in Aus, not sure still available or not la hehe, really can't stop comparing her with Need for Speed girls hehe

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exam exam

1st paper coming, less than 7 hrs, sigh, really no exam mood at all, can't help thinking about holidays :((

I think I most probably won't join the BBQ on 27th, might spend my last night of Gamma Sem 2 with other gangs and hmmm yamca? yeah yamca yamca haha, but for sure I at most also drink drinks only la, at most :P need on diet liao la sigh, meat meat already, chubby fox >^.^< hmmmmm cute also =)) since when I become sooooooo thick face already 1 har?

sigh, stupid computer graphic, I really see until blur la....

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Misc.

Get my bus ticket not long ago, finally, going back on 28th noon, needa count down?

Hmm..... shall I go for my alpha group's gathering on 27th night itself? I don't know, class 29/30, so many things happened, I gained something, and lost something in return as well, well, Law of Conversion I guess. I met my very first gang there (we faced some problem and disband, but I have to admit that being with you all will always be one of my precious memories, for all my life), I aimed for the top when I was there, I set rivals for myself, I was twisted, I never ever wanna return to the past anymore, such dark and endless nightmares... I promised myself I won't escape, I will face it all proud and bravely, let it be my past, my pain, you name it. I want to slowly erase my past, the old me that's not even loved by me myself at all. I always wished I am a phoenix, yea, the kind that will die and rebirth again whenever it's severly injured, shine even more and stronger than ever.

My 1st paper for Gamma Sem 2 final is coming really soon, in about 30hrs' time, yet my mind is still all messed, don't know what I read at all, blur, wonder how and why. There are too many things in my mind I think.

Found some nice MV these days, really nice, too bad I don't plan to upload it all here :D Well, those EPian gals, grab them all while you can, ok?

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Test test! I'm from Neptune =))

Get this test from Raymond's blog hehe, or shall I say steal instead? hehe, share share mah

Normally people say gals = from venus while guys = from mars, why don't yar try this out ans see where you originally from? hehe

ID Peace~! >^.^<

You Are From Neptune

You are dreamy and mystical, with a natural psychic ability. You love music, poetry, dance, and (most of all) the open sea. Your soul is filled with possibilities, and your heart overflows with compassion. You can be in a room full of friendly people and feel all alone. If you don't get carried away with one idea, your spiritual nature will see you through anything.

What Planet Are You From?

Hmm......... well, ya I love dreaming hehe, about mystical + natural psychic power ah? hmmm don't know ler :D

Yeap indeed I like music, too bad I can't sing T-T; poetry is suka suka play play la, simply tembak hehe; I wanna dance too, but last time EMiNA Cosplay that time I really messed up la..... sigh, stage fright, need overcome it no matter what; open sea ah hmmm... no comment

Possibilities + compassion, not sure

Be with friendly people but feel alone -> depends, see mood, see who they are, see topic whether ngam channel, see which FOX i am that time =))

As for the last 1, err...... don't know lei

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Yamca~

Went yamca last night, hmmmmm if go BB Ice House also can count in then I think it should be the 3rd time for Gamma year, right? Think so gua hehe >^.^<

At first I just wanna pass anime to a friend, then 'shun bian' yamca yamca a while lo, mana tau sit there talk and listen craps for 4 hrs!!! Believe it or not man..... 4 hrs?! =))

Ya thouse who know who I am but not really familiar enough with me sure will shock when they see this, "Hey man, you kidding? That fox... yamca 4 hrs? Oh god!! Eat wrong medicine kah?!?!" =))

Actually I always based on moods + people + time + etc 1 la, so even my closest friends also might be able to know just few faces of mine for whole life hehe, yeap yeap I'm multi-faced haha, heard of Naruto right? Then you sure know about Kyuubi, hey I didn't say I'm such a powerful FOX like him la, but at least I'm Kyuugao, 9-faced hehehe :P

So, slowly la then maybe I will reveal more and more gua I think hehe :P

Wah I really can crap, soooooo many OUT OF TOPIC craps haha, hmmm.... I think last night's yamca gang was quite nice lo, I saw them all before, and some how I know who they are; while they really got no idea who the heck I am before this =)) hehe, this call observation + analyzing + memory + reasoning ler buddy hehe, nice knowing you all lo, although you might won't see this hehe

END, for now



* Bonus, the Koi pond's photo I took from Au Yun Hill Resort during 14th's outing hehe, else feel too blank liao la, this blog

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Eherm.... poem, mine!!

Happy birthday to me
How I wish you are here
Right beside me
Watching over me
Whispering thousand words
On my very special day

How I ever forget
Your gentle smiles
Your moonish eyes
Your every little thing

You are the one
Who chose to shine on me
When I was nothing
But mere lone star

You gave me strength to live on
When I sank
Into the very bottom
Of my dark and lonely world

How I wish I could be with you
Now and then
Forever and ever

Wishing upon the falling stars
If there is a limit
Of how far I can walk by your side
Please, some how
Let me be the last to know
For I will treasure
All the time we shared
Without worrying about the end

* ("BIRTHDAY WISHES" by me~!!!!)

I wrote it during my birthday count down on 13th night itself. Don't know why, but I felt I really want to produce something,something that might be able to remind me of such wonderful day,and then... tada~! Came up with this so-called 'poem' of mine >^.^<

Well... after that I sot sot copy and paste it on both my friendster bulletin and profile, wah...... suddenly all my friends also shocked! Asking "hey who's that guy? miss heroin ^^ " oh oh..... oh crap!!

Ehrm..... actually I never thought of specially dedicate it to anyone at all ler, that time I was listening to FFX-2 Jade's "Thousand words" (Orchestra Version) + Kingdom Heart Utada's "Simply and clean", it's really so nice that even me also became sentimental already hehe, so, with some flash back from FF games + KH + real life memories, I wrote this crappy thing hehe

And then, just now something really make me kinda angry ler.... a friend of mine copy and paste it on his blog (with my permisson, ya) PLUS he reply my poem leh!!! walau, it sounded like I wrote it specially for him and then he's answering it, OMG!!! Kenot like that la, delete delete delete, sigh..It's kinda cruel but, even if someone wanna asnwer it, I also hope that it will be 'someone' else, hehe.. sorry la my friend *bow down*, I'm sure you know what I meant hehe ^_^"

BACK TO TOPIC -> hmm....... but then, perhaps I should really try to express what I couldn't say last time while chances are still available, right? Atashi, ganbarimasu!

Thanks for reading this crap :P

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First Post~

Hi, welcome to MY realm, the place where I dream, I voice out, and I go for it :P

As you can see, this is my very first post, well I heard of blogs and I did pay visit to others since some times ago, but still I was too lazy to type and publish my daily things on web hehe

Actually I wrote diaries, yet I always lost them hoho~ Maybe it is better since I can just forget all those unpleasent past, it's really hurt sooo much to keep all those bad memories within you, owww such burden, I had enough, dude~

Er...... eto..... that's all for now I think hehe :D

P:S/ err.... in case you all wonder what Kitsune means, come on la.... my nick in japanese, meaning fox! hehe

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