When F-O-X loves...

I'm a fox/ cat enjoy hunting for rare or unique items, this is something I immediately in love with when I saw the title, it says "When fox loves bear", cute name ain't it? Even the fox design also so adorable, *hint, I want a fox... fox doll also acceptable :P* nice songs, and, I like what they wrote on the cover, really meaningful :)

不管男人还是女人
心动的那一刻 就是一种永恒
思念的那一刻 就是一个整天
但毕竟
太阳和月亮是不同的发光体
还记得 男人和女人
一起走向一棵大树
放入 各自的心情
约好了 某年某月的同一天
要一起打开时光宝盒
回忆 彼此最相爱的那一刻
也许是巧合 我们都放入了同一首歌
也许是刻意 我们都说了爱
这就是我想念你的 24 个小时
你感觉到了吗

Elaboration
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*well, I translate and add in something extra, with many many terms from Greek Myth, FF series, etc :P

It means evergreen, a feeling that would carry on eternally, when you found yourself finally in love with someone you care; it will surely cost you your ever-the-same normal daily life, doing nothing but mere reminiscing all the moments you share, when you are thinking of the one dwelling in the very depth of you heart. It could only be just the same, no matter who you are, let it be descendants of Mars, or maidens from Venus.

However there goes the saying, there’s no way the Sun could get any closer to the Moon, even though they are both Heaven eyes, starring at us from the sky. It’s hard to deny, it hurts so much to face the truth, shall it be destiny, bounded by their fates, restricted by status and background, they could only looking at each other from afar; will there ever be just a narrow chance for them to override it, the rules they shall never meet nor belong to each other, other than receiving and obey to orders again and again?

Could you still remember, how we walked towards the great Iifa Tree of Gaia, hand in hand, just the two of us, as sinners, expelled from the world we used to call home, believed in each other and ready for endless trials and judgments. Together we…
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. *not finished yet, switch back to my study now :P*

= TO BE CONTINUED =

~ Wish ~

<24-09-2005>
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I don't know
What would it be
Life's a struggle
Fairly bounded
By equivalent trades

Being honest,
Being fair,
Will it be
The last moment ever
I’ll still be here
Standing in your eyes

Far too great,
The price to pay
Too heavy to bear,
The weight of memories
Too sore it taste,
The broken bond of hearts
I knew it well
All along

I'll voice out, instead
I have to, in fact
I don't want
To feel sorry
To myself
When I'm once again
Dream about the past
While I'm still be able
To witness the beauty
And sorrow
The mystical twilight
Of heartrending November



* last modification 26-09-2005

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Requiem

Saw a very nice poem just now, in Chinese,

每个女孩都曾经是一位天使
当她遇到自己喜欢的人
是会流下一滴眼泪
於是天使变成了凡人
所以你一定要珍惜深爱你的女生
因为她为了你
曾放弃了整个天堂

Translation
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There was a story ever told, all the gorgeous and innocent ladies were born to be Angels, however they were then fallen and could only stay as mere Human from the very moment they found and shed their tears for the one they like. That is why, guys out there, please do remember to appreciate and be good to those deeply in love with you, for all your Angels were brave and strong enough to forgo the Heaven just for you.
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Ehrm… sounds kind of weird, think I’m not a good translator :P
Suddenly reminded of this old crap of mine (should be around Alpha Trimester 3) just now, let it be the requiem for all the Angels then…



<dd-mm-2003>
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If I fall
If I were to die on this tainted ground
Will you cry
Will you catch me
Will you reach me at all
Or do Angels really fly
Only to fall down and die...

= END =

Phantom & Atlantis

Re-touched the Atlantis, so here comes version 2

Title: Phantom
Genre: Elegant, Fantasy
Inspiration: Amidala from Star Wars
Color: ... not sure yet

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Mermaid's melody

Should be studying by now, but ended up day dreaming + manga reading + web browsing + image searching + "designing"... ^_^"

Following is the sketch of the evening gown I drew, mere prototype, color mostly focus on white and blue, ( will add in some silver, green, and yellow perhaps), normally I will name those I drew, for this one, I'll call her "Atlantis" I think >^.~<

Name: Atlantis
Inspiration: Mermaid
Color: White, blue, etc

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Yami e kaero...

It's been days now, I wonder whether I can finally let it go, everything, gone by the wind, just as what I planned, guess it is better to forgone such unreachable fantasy, ain't it? Knowing you, is it a disaster, or could it be my destiny? I could never return to the Great Calm, the period of time when everything was still in order and under my control

I shall become the Hermit instead, hiding myself in darkness, for it will be the last place I shall return to, yea, run, away from everything, as far as I could, forget about those Human, I am who I am, for there ain't anything I urged for but myself

Return to darkness, return to innocent, return to the place, where I am no longer mere shadows. If there really is light within every single darkness, then, let me be the only star there, without the sun, nor the moon; I just want to be remembered, for even once, I want you to have your eyes on me, even though it will actually cost me my worthless lowly life

books of my life :P

recently (especially this whole Trimester 1) really spent quite a lot on books (and comics as well :P)

just bought myself "The Da Vinci Code" by Dan Brown, finally, but mine is Chinese version, thought of purchasing the English illustrated version but it really cost me my life ^_^" RM130++ OMG~~ T-T

still in progress reading it, plus chatting + mp3 + etc etc, multitasking huh? Typical MMU FIST student I guess lol

next, this is yet another great book I read, "Memories of a Geisha" by Arthur Golden, revolved among the heroin Sayuri and all her Geiko 'sisters', her loved ones, her trainings and hardship... etc, LOL sorry but I'm not good in reviewing books I guess :P

there's a movie based on it, starring by Zhang Zhi Yi (Sayuri), Michelle (Mameha), and Gong Li (Hatsumomo), wondering how it's gonna be, hmm...

OK, well... these are some of the comics ('manga' in japanese language) I bought, "Tantei Gakkuen Q" (Detective Academy Q) and also "Dear Boys Act II", still searching for others, namely "Black Cat" and "Yami no Matsuei" (Decendance of Darkness) etc...

well, there goes all my money, money money gone by the wind... T-T

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memories...

It's been a really long time, neither blogging nor keeping diaries, for sometimes I just don't want to keep even just a single trace of the past

Too many things happened, such as

• how I decided to apply and get my current position in ITS;
• how I realized of my own feelings;
• how I hurt by rumors;
• the sadness and sorrow I felt when I was alone without my friends being here with me, for they are still busy with their industrial trainings;
• how I get into relationship, which only lasted for 1 month, including the 2 weeks time of negotiation etc, just because I couldn't ignore the fact that no matter what and how I tried, my heart is still somewhere far away, wondering and waiting for miracles, where the Goddess will never smiles on me at all.

......



Recently, I couldn't stop but keep comparing myself with someone, it is sad and it hurts to actually announce that, I would never be able to surpass her nor even just barely reach her, regardless what I do... time to say goodbye I guess... saraba, koko de wakaremashou, ne?

<31-08-2005>
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There’s a girl,
Dancing under limelight,
Eternally,
Everyone loves her,
For her beauty,
For her smiles,
For whatever she is,
Comparing to her,
I’m nothing but low life,
Abandoned by the moon,
Vanished from memories,
Someone who only worth exist in darkness,
With the cold, cold mask of mine,
Searching for even,
Just a dimmed ray of light,
Without anyone,
By my side

......

Weirdo ain't I? Writing something stupid and dark on such a so-called "celebration", M'sia National Day it is, I felt nothing, but blue and gloom...

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