Kitsune - Tsubasa no Realm

Update... after such long idle :P

2006-10-31T08:35:00.000+08:00

Yay, ya you bet, I'm now back in blogspot again, sorry peeps for my dissapearence haha, anyway I'm here to briefly inform you all what happened during the past... er..... whole year? LOL

OK, regarding TRINITE 2006, I was assigned as their Director for Designing Division, well as the name suggested, all I did was designing, designing, and designing LOL, I admit we all faced some problems back then since it was the very first time for me to actually get involved in graphic designing tools (Adobe series), I could only sketch something with bare free hand before that, typical old school style ya?

Hmm... overall I think TRINITE was a great success, we all enjoyed the night, dressed up nicely, took photos, danced and laughed as much as we could, and guess what, Amber was there, ya you bet!! It's M'sia top model Amber Chia, wow gorgeous goddess :P Other than that, we got Jac & Daniel, our well known M'sian Idol in the house, featuring special star Reshmonu, and I bet none of us would ever forget about JJ & Ruddy from Hitz, right? >^^<

Well, I think it's now time for me to introduce my TRINITE partner, eherm.... his name is Wei Shin a.k.a. Wayne, sound familiar right? Hehe, in fact we officially become a pair since 1st Dec 2005, it was like a dream when he suddenly yet finally expressed what he felt inside, aiks even now I am still too happy to think about it and it really messed up my mind haha, so I think I'll leave it aside now and tell you guys next time :P

Hmm.... time for Industrial Training matter now I guess, regardless of my current major in Information System Engineering, I picked a totally different road for my training, in fact I would most probably stick with it for my future career. I was assigned as Apprentice Graphic Designer in Perfection Plus Enterprise, Melaka, hmm it was a small designing firm, but I managed to learn a lot from my superiors there, at least for now I could finally say it out loud that, ehrm... "I can use Illustrator & Photoshop, and manage to produce some so-called creative designs now" LOL~~ hmm.. I get more mature in graphic handeling perhaps, hopefully my superiors won't be crying if they ever read my blogs haha, since I was nothiing but trouble maker there :P

Currently, 31st Oct 2006, I'm still having my holiday break in Sungai Petani Kedah, and will be heading back to Melaka again on 4th Nov, it finally my turn for Final Year Project huh? Bless me, hehe. Somehow I AM DEFINITELY CAN'T WAIT for 11th Nov, because HE IS COMING BACK TO MELAKA~~~ ya he's now doing his training in P2IOnline, Cyberjaya, hopefully everything will be fine, guess I should start planning for how re we going to celebrate my bday in advance already huh? Hehe

OK OK, time to stop, mum's yelling haha, there should be some picture hiding some where in my laptop, I'll try to upload them later if possible, because photos express more than words, right? >^^<

Ciao~ Adios~ Bye bye~

= TO BE CONTINUED =

dimmed...

2005-11-25T20:01:00.000+08:00

Received invitation email regarding Trinite 2006 EXCO just a moment ago... strange... what is the doubt and uncertanty I felt? I applied for the position, ain't I? I was the one who went for the interview during Trimester 1, and aimed for either design & deco division, or stick back to the post I'm most familiar with -> secretary, again... LOL~

Eventhough I'm not really skilled or talented, yet I guess I'm interested in designing, since a really long time ago, shall it be fate that I never had the chance to go after my dreams... hehe... I always thought I will finally be able to walk with jazz along the desired path of my own after graduated from high school... but then, as you all can see, I'm now here in MMU Malacca hehe... It's OK, I understand... ^^

Well... switch back to topic, for now I'm still not sure which position I'll get, but I'm sure it's not the reason for everything I felt, it was like... ehrm... sort of natural senses, sort of like I might actually lost something I appreciate the most, or perhaps something dearest to me if I really head for what I've been chasing after... weird... blur...

I hope I get it wrong this time, eventhough I could really believe in all my senses most of the time... Artemis, guide me, shine some light upon your dimmed follower, would you...

T-T

= ...... =

weeks of celebration?

2005-11-23T06:54:00.000+08:00

= Sunday =

Hmm... how should I begin all the stories...? OK, let's switch back to Sunday evening then (20th Nov 2005), agreed to join TC's birthday celebration, together with Ah Teh, Ah Soon, Bakap, Kien Fei, WS, Mey Lei, Chee Chyuan, and the birthday boy himself of course, or else who's gonna pay for everything we spent? :P Right?

So hmm... gather at their place around 7, and headed for Malim steamboat in 2 cars, both Ah Soon's and Bakap's :P For me, I seldom drive at night due to my eyesight problem, yeap I have glasses, but then sorry to say it, I made them 3 years ago LOL~ Still the vision is far more better comparing with the Amanda without her specs on :P And then, my brother needed the car, plus... my jeans... way too long I guess, too clumsy, time to get myself new jeans perhaps? *thinking* And lastly... I don't really know where it is... ^_^" swt

PS: Oh ya~! Received the kinda belated (who cares) birthday present from both TP and TC siblings, what could it be... -> Mashi Maro LOL~ Thanks, errr question, can I punch it whenever I'm in bad mood? Feel like wanna whack it good with just a glance on its face LOL~ jk jk, thanks again ^^

Mashi, front view

Mashi, wuu~~~~ with fragrance, huh? :P

Mashi... back view *get my knuckles ready* :P

OK OK, here we are in Malim steamboat, how we seated again hmm... it was a roud table, I think I'll start with the girls first (yay~!) -> Mey Lei, Kien Fei, Me~~ WS, Bakap, Chee Chyuan, TC, Ah Teh, and lastly Ah Soon, wow bravo to my memory muahahaha. *laughing laughing* Now I finally be able to withness how guys enjoy their meals, again, all with their 2nd round, 3rd round, 4th or even 5th... well I guess it IS normal for guys, ain't it? Forgotten to bring along my digicam, even Fei also didn't manage to take a good snap before the guys started to "torture" (LOL~) the foods there. Huh? You ask about the scenes after we finished EVERYTHING??? ... Let's just forget it, shall we? ^_^" swt :P

Next, headed for Xuan Cafe in Melaka Raya around 10, well at first TC mentioned about some karaOK singing session, but then... the guys couldn't make it anymore, with all the things they devoured :P Ehrm... nothing special there, just some drinks and songs listening, some of them provoked me for beer drinking, well... it's not like I CAN'T drink, just that I don't feel like drinking back then~ :P Took some pics using Fei's digicam, ehrm... will upload theirs once I get them, as for mine... have you forgotten? I'm not photogenic, plus I don't take pic :P so forget about it OK? Yeak yeak yeak~~ *evil grins*

Hmm... guess it's the end for TC's celebration, huh? Thanks and sorry to Bakap for sending me back to EP again ^_^" After some shower etc (icy cold water, yarks T-T), it's time going to bed of course, the sweetest thing to do is to have a nice sleep during "winter", right? LOL~

= Monday =

Went CLC0003 around 8pm for Spanish Language Society's dance classes meeting, yeap I'm not a member yet, but they said we can register ourself as one once we approach their booth for the dance lesson registration ^^ Glad to hear that, ain't it?

Suggested details as followed,

Time: 8.00pm - 9.30pm
Every Tuesday night (once a week)
Venue: Melaka town, transportation provided (with some extra charge)
Fees: RM40 monthly
Dances to be taught: Waltz, Tango, etc etc

Well... finally able to drag Esther in, yup yup she's interested now yay~! Hmm... but then, is it OK for we 2 girls to team up and dance there? Who's gonna learn the guy's steps then? For me myself, I'll be the girl due to my height, but... @_@" Guess I needa teach her what I learn there then, or else we gonna pair up with some unknown guys, hmm...

Currently waiting for SLS people to set up their booth, yosh~!

= Tuesday =

Yay~! Received yet some other belated presents (again, who cares??? Presents presents ^^) from both Susan and Ryan couple, thanks a lot ^^

The box, before unwrapped

After unwrapped

Birthday card ^^

Birthday card, inner view :P

Susan's hand-made neko~~ front view

Neko neko, back view~

PS: Tried making a baby penguin few Trimester back then, but... mine not nice 1... T-T it was the first ever handicraft I couldn't really master it, sigh...

Keychain, can you see the Scorpio sign?? hehe ^^

"Kitty" bank, front view

"Kitty" bank, back view

OK, the end for photo sharing, and also the end for all my birthday presents I think (but actually I hope NOT~~~ :P) Again... THANKS EVERYONE~~ ^^

= END =

summary

2005-11-20T07:26:00.000+08:00

First of all... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SINLIN :) :) :) Sorry ya... planned to wait until 12 last night and SMS you right away, but couldn't make it, fell asleep LOL~ Wondering if there's anything wrong with my body now hmm... Just awake, feel kinda err... strange...?? @_@"

Recently always listen to Elva's songs, bought the cd during yamca session (with Esther hehe), here you go, some snapz of the cover, the song menu, those I like (marked with red *), etc

Next hmm... HP HP Harry Potter~ Well, went GSC MP for the movie yesterday, OMG such long Q... ^_^" saw my brother Wolf's roomate there, get our ticket slightly early with his help, wanna know who I am? 3.35pm Cinema 3 row... er...... 3rd from the front, seat number 17 :P

For me, the movie considered great, but then since I'm not really one of the fans, neither HP's books nor movies, so there were some minor problems for me... some how I don't know about the characters... ^_^" Well it DID affect a bit of my understanding, but I guess it's still under control~

PS: ... Am I REALLY sickening?? Felt C.O.L.D there... @_@" Hmm not bad, get myself purple-ish finger nails without the need of nail polish, aiks what I'm talking about??? Still blur now perhaps.

Next, switch to MP's environment, snowman~ x-mas trees~ Santa Claus~ x-mas hats~ etc etc, reminded me of how I celebrated all the x-mas I spent here in Melaka...

Alpha -> Eve's "celebration" at Klebang, with housemates (Carmen, Carrie, Shiao Yinn, Ah Ching, LPL), Ah Fun, HellSpawn, Raison, and also Mei Ching, but even now I still not sure whether "that" could be counted as our x-mas celebration LOL~ imagine and see, whole bunch of teens, along with lanterns and cake, just like a mixture of Mid Autumn Festival and dear x-mas, too bad we couldn't get fire crakers back then, aih... Then hmm... we housemates exchange presents on the x-mas itself, what I received again...?? I could only remember about the blue star earrings from Carrie... @_@"
Beta -> BBQ at seniors' house, all Gamma, I was the one and only Beta lil buddy there LOL~ so do you think there's anything I needa do? Of course NOT~~ sometimes I think it's good being the smallest (youngest) among the gang, yeak yeak yeak~~ Who was there hmm... Cher Yi, Ah Chang, Xiao Lan, Xiao Sze, Fei Xien, Ah Sim, Chee How, Mei Ching, Jean, Kenny, Destiny, and 2 more guys I guess... Again, we exchanged presents, near the small small x-mas tree LOL~ the 2 other guys (Gamma FET back then) bought them, white in color. Ah Chang (my very first roomate after shifting to EP unit B-03-12, but she moved out after my Beta sem 2) get mine (photo frame I think); while I took Cher Yi's Pooh Bear towel, hehe, thanks, all of you, at least I was able to let go of some of my sorrows there... too many things happened during Beta Sem 2... arghhhhh it's all over now, cheer up cheer up~~ ^^
Gamma -> AGAIN, with seniors, hehe, but with minor add-and-drop, this time we went Sampan instead, exchange presents there (get the cups from Wendy, thanks ^^), then proceed to the... ehrm... the same hotel I spent my Alpha x-mas there, forgot the name though... ^_^" there were quite a big "castle" made of bread at the lobby, wondering where I save all the pics already... will upload them once I retrieve them all :)
Delta -> ...... wakaranai~ :P

What else we did back in MP...? Oh ya~ Daytona ^^ hopefully my skill get better, at least for just a bit, but then... sigh... always get hit by other cars... ^_^" becareful ya, once I level up I'll smash you all and KO in single hit instead, muahahah I'm evil~ yeak yeak yeak

Hmm... I guess that's all for now, feel cold *trembling trembling* but my roomate is still sleeping soundly, can't do anything about the ceiling fan this way... T-T sigh, let it be, let it be~ ^^

= TO BE CONTINUED? MAYBE =

Cameron snapz >^.^<

2005-11-18T10:44:00.000+08:00

Yaya, as mentioned, we went Cameron Highland, right? So here you are, some snaps I got from the Rose Garden, well... forgive me, because I'm just an amatuer, so the pics might look bad hehe ^_^" *sweat*

white rose

ehrm... ?? (the flower get dimmed... hate the sun light, sigh)

what kind of fruit is this?

unknown flower~ :P

unknown flower version 2~~

ehrm... another unknown, muahaha

wakaranai~~

this one I also wakaranai~~ *whistle*

yellow rose :P

...... I think next time, I better take a good look at their names... T-T

cute flower :)

= END =

tree...

2005-11-18T09:48:00.000+08:00

OK, the story goes this way, yesterday I requested for Kien Fei's help to hans over the souvenirs I bought to Wei Shin and others, well there included the "tree" I grabbed during my Genting trip with family hehe, so basically this whole blog will revolve and focus on the poor green "tree"... Hold it~! What's with the word "poor"? Relax, allow me to slowly brief you the story... T-T

Hmm... I think WS was the very very first one among all my friends that actually started playing around with the "tree" lol, received news about the green lil fella, according to WS, the "tree" was fully blossom within an hour, sooo cute and adorable, just like x-mas tree hehe, well in fact x-mas really coming soon, huh? Needa start planning now I guess...

It's ehrm.... kinda weird to say it, but I never get the chance to examine the "tree"s I bought, since they were all souvenirs for friends LOL, I really really wanna take a look or even take pictures of how nice it is, suddenly... SOS~! WS said the color get dimmed and now it's withering OMG~! It's totally different from what I saw back in Genting there, how could it be? Because of the difference in temperature? T-T

So, in the end WS came and "escort" me to their place, hmm I guess if I dare go there alone, I WILL surely being scold by my friends, saying things like "Are you crazy? Ya wanna being 'cat'-naped???" LOL~ Sorry ya WS, for making you walk all the way here again ^_^"

PS: I agree now, the slopes there after raining is really dangerous... *sweat*

Change of scene, now here we are in front of the...... "tree"??? Can't really find an suitable word to describe what I saw... there's almost nothing left for the upper part of the poor lil thing, but just the trunk... there's withered "leaves" here and there on the desk, the color getting dimmer and dimmer....

PS: After looking at how... ehrm... tragedic the poor fella was, it makes me even harder to start and plant the one I received from Esther, it's different version, since we really need to put the seeds etc, well... wanna see how it looks? Just like an egg, LOL~ Thanks Esther

Aiks... Guess I couldn't make it for the nice x-mas tree version, too bad WS couldn't use his hp (since the clumsy TPin took the wrong charger back to their home LOL~) else I would really ask him to take pictures, at least it will theorically last longer this way, right? At least in our memory hehe :P

Then, we tried to add in some water into the plate, hopefully the "leaves" will eventually "grow back" again, or maybe the color will get better... some how.... but I think it really sounds weird ain't it? :P Hmm... correct me if I was wrong, but I think I saw some new "leaves" at the upper layer, mere imagination? Hallucination?? I wonder...

Next, time for yamca, or else poor WS might really suffer and dying from hunger haha, I guess guys would normally eat more than we all girls, right? So, headed to Rama, had some chit chat there, saw our ITS webmaster Kim Hang (a.k.a Conandor), wondering what he ordered, hmm... Kim Hang... how dare you didn't treat me some... LOL~ joking joking :D

Eto... next, walked back to EP, of course with the kind and great WS as escort AGAIN LOL~ Sorry ya for all the troubles :) Just some time before I slept, received the lastest news regarding the "tree" AGAIN... now... it's officially gone, no way~! Back then the lady told me it need about 6 hrs to fully blossom, but in reality it could only lasted for 6 hrs??? What the... sigh... Sayounara, "tree" T-T

LOL~ I guess that's all for now, that's the end for the post, see ya *wave*

BONUS: I borrowed the orange color version from my roomate, so here you go, remember to take note of what that's written on the cover... sigh...

= END =

presents

2005-11-15T10:18:00.000+08:00

ehrm... some friends of mine keep asking for details about my birthday presents... wondering whether it's OK for me to take their picture and post up here, hmm...

purple hippo plushie, from roomate Ai Sien

ornament, from Kien Fei

candle, from Chee Chyuan

hand-made kitsune doll, front view, from SinLin

hand-made kistune doll, back view, from SinLin

handphone holder, from Wei Shin

er... tissue box wrapper (how to describe it?), from Wei Shin

Filet-o-Fish (LOL~ food for my cat? :P), from Wei Shin

souvenir from Penang, from Wei Shin

well, that's all for now, Ryan and Susan couple's still on the way LOL, too bad I forgot to take pictures of my birthday cakes T-T

= TO BE CONTINUED =

celebration on 14th >^.^<

2005-11-15T08:24:00.000+08:00

Extra~~: thanks SinLin for the kawaii handmade kitsune >^.^<>^.^< Thanks again~

As mentioned, I had my lil' birthday "party" in Moritomo restaurant last night, too bad Susan couldn't make it T-T so there were 5 including me myself hehe (Fox~~, Esther, Ryan, Kien Fei, Wei Shin)

We departed around 6.30, I was the driver last night, well... sigh, shame on myself, something happened, how come I soooooooo blur back then?? Sigh, totally abnormal... *sob sob*

PS: Sorry... Fei and Wei Shin... for causing you the troubles *sob*

Hmm... Let's switch back to the main activities, shall we? We got the chance to grab the 2nd room, finally (haha), since there were always just 3 or 4 of us before this for my annual birthday celebration there, so... we could only occupied the 1st and smallest room hehe, with maximum capacity of 4 >^.^<

They were soooooo quiet at first, wondering whether was it they were still new and not familiar with another party (Esther + Ryan, Kien Fei + Wei Shin), or they were still terrified and "in awe" of what happened before this... *sob again* Well, being the "host", I could only try my very very very best to heat them up, LOL~~

Ordered the meal with the help of the kind and warm obasan (ops... forgot her name OMG~~), she was wearing brand new set of uniform back then, a promotion perhaps?? Hehe omedetou~ Knew her since the very first day I went there, alone, for lunch, should be some time after my Beta 2nd Trimester's break when I finally came back to Melaka again... and vowed for brand new beginning hehe >^.^<>^.^<

Argh... back to topic, so, here's the list I picked~
1. Yakisoba (strongly recommended >^.^< fried noodles, our all time favorite, prefer Soba than normal Udon)
2. Yakitori (grill chicken, with some cheese etc, got vegetable as well)
3. 5 Chawanmushi (boiled egg, with ingredients, fill inside a cup or something)
4. * Tori nabe (chicken's hot pot, using paper as the pot haha, nice)
5. * Futomaki (wrapped with seaweed, filled with rice, cucumber, fish cake, etc)

note: I'm not sure about those name marked with *

Since it was the very first time for both Kien Fei and Wei Shin for being there in Moritomo, I wonder what they actually feel about the food and environment etc there, would it suit their taste? Did they enjoy the meal? Argh... I hope they did, hehe.

Next, went for some "walk" inside JJ, haha, since Ryan needa bought something, so we all also simply window shopping, exploring anything new and looked nice, LOL~~ Fei and I saw the ehrm... "iron egg" downstair, it's a kind of Taiwan dishes, they boiled the eggs and seasoned it for a really long time until all the eggs also become iron balls already, LOL~ I think we should really bought it and ask someone to taste it haha~! Wondering how it taste...

Dropped Ryan back to his place, he couldn't make it for a movie in GSC MP with us, it appeared Susan was not feeling well, owww... get well soon, ya? So here we go, MP~ Watched HK movie "Dragon Squad", soooooo many gun fire, soooo many "kaboom"... wah... haha, well... kind of feel like crying when I saw the scenes where the only girl within the team get shot, and the other part of the movie that was related to her, their snipper's feeling, her loved one's feeling, etc

OK, went home after the movie, time to reveal the secret within the boxes haha, thanks Fei, Wei Shin, and Chee Chyuan for the presents >^.^<>.< feel bad now, sigh...

Fei, the ornament is nice, really :)

Wei Shin, ... really shocked when I opened up the box and looked inside, LOL~ sooooo many things there haha, thanks, really appreciate, for everything :)

Chee Chyuan, thanks for the candle, of coz there's no way I would use it, too wasted if simply burn it into ashes, so it will always remain as what it is, is it OK? :)

hmm.... I guess that's all for now, sigh... still thinking about last night's incident, sigh... plus... I still yet to wrap Esther's belated presents arghhhhhh..... how to wrap how to wrap? @-@

= TO.. BE.. CONTINUED... ?? =

life updates :P

2005-11-14T02:46:00.000+08:00

What happened during Trimester 1 final break?

1. went back to Kedah the day after my BHM paper
2. continue my stitching, from time to time
3. went KL +The Mines + Genting (family trip, heavy rain all the way >.<)
4. get my new DVDROM
5. new pair of boots (birthday present from mum)
6. started my weight reducing plan (since I gained so much fat before this)
7. car driving from time to time
8. get my MP3 player (1G, birthday present from dad)
9. sent our cat to vet (poisoned >.<)
10. went back Sitiawan, (dad’s home) visit grandma
11. heard about my 1st Trimester’s result, from both Ryan and Esther
12. confirmed, yokatta >^.^<
13. went Cameron Highland (1 day family trip)
14. dropped my HP OMG~!
15. retrieved the cat, but sent her back again, too ill… >.< ...
16. went Ipoh, cousin’s (consider so) wedding engagement banquet
17. get my new HP, Nokia 3120, at last
18. birthday celebration with family, in advance >^.^< thanks
19. retrieve our black cat, at last
20. bought some presents >^.^< hehe
21. … failed to achieve my target, so… Project “C” delayed

22. came back to Melaka
23. endless room cleaning + unpacking + repacking etc bla bla
24. dinner + movie (Chicken Little, cute and funny >^.^<) with TPin etc
25. get my birthday present from roommate Ai Sien (purple hippo plushie), thanks
26. bought my Air Bike, from JJ, brought all the way up to EP 3rd floor + set up >.< ...
27. thanks Xena for the help ^^
28. too tired for exercises…… Zzz

Well, that’s all :P Just that now I am wondering, what actually IS my plan for 13th night?? I’m blur, sigh. Everyone asking the same question, just how and with who will I spend my countdown with? Sigh… perhaps will just stay back in EP, do nothing but sleep like there’s no tomorrow LOL;)

Well, so we get the answer already, 1st went yamca with Esther, came back to EP, birthday celebration from housemates >^.^< , nice chocolate cheese cake, thanks, really appreciate it.

Next, appointment with Zie Tieng this coming weekend, plus 14th's dinner at Moritomo with Esther, Ryan + Susan couple, Kien Fei, Wei Shin etc >^.^< What's next? Don't know, hmm...

= TO BE CONTINUED... ??? =

When F-O-X loves...

2005-09-28T02:26:00.000+08:00

I'm a fox/ cat enjoy hunting for rare or unique items, this is something I immediately in love with when I saw the title, it says "When fox loves bear", cute name ain't it? Even the fox design also so adorable, *hint, I want a fox... fox doll also acceptable :P* nice songs, and, I like what they wrote on the cover, really meaningful :)

不管男人还是女人
心动的那一刻就是一种永恒
思念的那一刻就是一个整天
但毕竟
太阳和月亮是不同的发光体
还记得男人和女人
一起走向一棵大树
放入各自的心情
约好了某年某月的同一天
要一起打开时光宝盒
回忆彼此最相爱的那一刻
也许是巧合我们都放入了同一首歌
也许是刻意我们都说了爱
这就是我想念你的 24 个小时
你感觉到了吗

Elaboration
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*well, I translate and add in something extra, with many many terms from Greek Myth, FF series, etc :P

It means evergreen, a feeling that would carry on eternally, when you found yourself finally in love with someone you care; it will surely cost you your ever-the-same normal daily life, doing nothing but mere reminiscing all the moments you share, when you are thinking of the one dwelling in the very depth of you heart. It could only be just the same, no matter who you are, let it be descendants of Mars, or maidens from Venus.

However there goes the saying, there’s no way the Sun could get any closer to the Moon, even though they are both Heaven eyes, starring at us from the sky. It’s hard to deny, it hurts so much to face the truth, shall it be destiny, bounded by their fates, restricted by status and background, they could only looking at each other from afar; will there ever be just a narrow chance for them to override it, the rules they shall never meet nor belong to each other, other than receiving and obey to orders again and again?

Could you still remember, how we walked towards the great Iifa Tree of Gaia, hand in hand, just the two of us, as sinners, expelled from the world we used to call home, believed in each other and ready for endless trials and judgments. Together we…
.
. *not finished yet, switch back to my study now :P*

= TO BE CONTINUED =

~ Wish ~

2005-09-26T21:31:00.000+08:00

<24-09-2005>
===========
I don't know
What would it be
Life's a struggle
Fairly bounded
By equivalent trades

Being honest,
Being fair,
Will it be
The last moment ever
I’ll still be here
Standing in your eyes

Far too great,
The price to pay
Too heavy to bear,
The weight of memories
Too sore it taste,
The broken bond of hearts
I knew it well
All along

I'll voice out, instead
I have to, in fact
I don't want
To feel sorry
To myself
When I'm once again
Dream about the past
While I'm still be able
To witness the beauty
And sorrow
The mystical twilight
Of heartrending November

* last modification 26-09-2005

= END =

Requiem

2005-09-11T14:46:00.000+08:00

Saw a very nice poem just now, in Chinese,

每个女孩都曾经是一位天使
当她遇到自己喜欢的人
是会流下一滴眼泪
於是天使变成了凡人
所以你一定要珍惜深爱你的女生
因为她为了你
曾放弃了整个天堂

Translation
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There was a story ever told, all the gorgeous and innocent ladies were born to be Angels, however they were then fallen and could only stay as mere Human from the very moment they found and shed their tears for the one they like. That is why, guys out there, please do remember to appreciate and be good to those deeply in love with you, for all your Angels were brave and strong enough to forgo the Heaven just for you.
.
.
Ehrm… sounds kind of weird, think I’m not a good translator :P
Suddenly reminded of this old crap of mine (should be around Alpha Trimester 3) just now, let it be the requiem for all the Angels then…

<dd-mm-2003>
============
If I fall
If I were to die on this tainted ground
Will you cry
Will you catch me
Will you reach me at all
Or do Angels really fly
Only to fall down and die...

= END =

Phantom & Atlantis

2005-09-10T00:10:00.000+08:00

Re-touched the Atlantis, so here comes version 2

Title: Phantom
Genre: Elegant, Fantasy
Inspiration: Amidala from Star Wars
Color: ... not sure yet

= TO BE CONTINUED =

Mermaid's melody

2005-09-09T03:01:00.000+08:00

Should be studying by now, but ended up day dreaming + manga reading + web browsing + image searching + "designing"... ^_^"

Following is the sketch of the evening gown I drew, mere prototype, color mostly focus on white and blue, ( will add in some silver, green, and yellow perhaps), normally I will name those I drew, for this one, I'll call her "Atlantis" I think >^.~<

Name: Atlantis
Inspiration: Mermaid
Color: White, blue, etc

= TO BE CONTINUED =

Yami e kaero...

2005-09-05T07:54:00.000+08:00

It's been days now, I wonder whether I can finally let it go, everything, gone by the wind, just as what I planned, guess it is better to forgone such unreachable fantasy, ain't it? Knowing you, is it a disaster, or could it be my destiny? I could never return to the Great Calm, the period of time when everything was still in order and under my control

I shall become the Hermit instead, hiding myself in darkness, for it will be the last place I shall return to, yea, run, away from everything, as far as I could, forget about those Human, I am who I am, for there ain't anything I urged for but myself

Return to darkness, return to innocent, return to the place, where I am no longer mere shadows. If there really is light within every single darkness, then, let me be the only star there, without the sun, nor the moon; I just want to be remembered, for even once, I want you to have your eyes on me, even though it will actually cost me my worthless lowly life

books of my life :P

2005-09-03T20:58:00.000+08:00

recently (especially this whole Trimester 1) really spent quite a lot on books (and comics as well :P)

just bought myself "The Da Vinci Code" by Dan Brown, finally, but mine is Chinese version, thought of purchasing the English illustrated version but it really cost me my life ^_^" RM130++ OMG~~ T-T

still in progress reading it, plus chatting + mp3 + etc etc, multitasking huh? Typical MMU FIST student I guess lol

next, this is yet another great book I read, "Memories of a Geisha" by Arthur Golden, revolved among the heroin Sayuri and all her Geiko 'sisters', her loved ones, her trainings and hardship... etc, LOL sorry but I'm not good in reviewing books I guess :P

there's a movie based on it, starring by Zhang Zhi Yi (Sayuri), Michelle (Mameha), and Gong Li (Hatsumomo), wondering how it's gonna be, hmm...

OK, well... these are some of the comics ('manga' in japanese language) I bought, "Tantei Gakkuen Q" (Detective Academy Q) and also "Dear Boys Act II", still searching for others, namely "Black Cat" and "Yami no Matsuei" (Decendance of Darkness) etc...

well, there goes all my money, money money gone by the wind... T-T

= TO BE CONTINUED =

memories...

2005-09-02T09:22:00.000+08:00

It's been a really long time, neither blogging nor keeping diaries, for sometimes I just don't want to keep even just a single trace of the past

Too many things happened, such as

how I decided to apply and get my current position in ITS;
how I realized of my own feelings;
how I hurt by rumors;
the sadness and sorrow I felt when I was alone without my friends being here with me, for they are still busy with their industrial trainings;
how I get into relationship, which only lasted for 1 month, including the 2 weeks time of negotiation etc, just because I couldn't ignore the fact that no matter what and how I tried, my heart is still somewhere far away, wondering and waiting for miracles, where the Goddess will never smiles on me at all.

......

Recently, I couldn't stop but keep comparing myself with someone, it is sad and it hurts to actually announce that, I would never be able to surpass her nor even just barely reach her, regardless what I do... time to say goodbye I guess... saraba, koko de wakaremashou, ne?

<31-08-2005>
===========
There’s a girl,
Dancing under limelight,
Eternally,
Everyone loves her,
For her beauty,
For her smiles,
For whatever she is,
Comparing to her,
I’m nothing but low life,
Abandoned by the moon,
Vanished from memories,
Someone who only worth exist in darkness,
With the cold, cold mask of mine,
Searching for even,
Just a dimmed ray of light,
Without anyone,
By my side

......

Weirdo ain't I? Writing something stupid and dark on such a so-called "celebration", M'sia National Day it is, I felt nothing, but blue and gloom...

= TO BE CONTINUED =

...... Sayounara

2005-03-03T23:25:00.000+08:00

chat with junior, she face the situation I once had, ...... suddenly feel emotional, thus came out with this 3rd crap of mine

I know I shouldn't cry,
I know I couldn't ask you to stay,
I know it's impossible,
That's why I couldn't stand to look at you at all
If only I could turn back time,
Will I ever appreciate more,
The limited time we had?
Will I really be able
To secretly hide my pain,
Just to show you my best smile?
Will I ever generous enough,
To watch over your back gently,
And hold my tears,
When there ain't alternatives,
But to let you go?

Wolf + Honda...

2005-02-12T17:40:00.000+08:00

here I am again, after such long time being inactive here

nothing much, but photo photo and photo

Wolf, pool side, BLM Club

Wolf, lobby, BLM Club

Honda, our car, but not mine

TO BE CONTINUED...

what happened around xmas (to be continued)

2004-12-26T17:48:00.000+08:00

24-12-04
=======
Morning -> went for facial, as usual
Noon -> received the super bad news from Ryan, Susan's Lizzie in critical
condition!!! T-T
Evening -> went JJ, dinner at Moritomo >^.^<, bought materials needed for
my plan~
Night -> "Project B0113"~! listened to BoA's (Meri Kuri) while counting
down, left alone in EP T-T
Midnight -> yawn...... slept around 5 heheheh, finished 1 of them *hint hint*

* will reveal more about "Project B0113" next time >^.^<

25-12-04
=======
Morning -> woke up around 9, duh, eyes a bit pain, so switched to anime
burning session instead (Final Approach, School Rumble,
Grenadier, Kannazuki no Miko, etc)
Noon -> planned to nap, but didn't feel sleepy at all T-T
Evening -> had to abort my burning session, stupid USB T-T
Night -> YM, slept earlier, since tomorrow is a big day :D

26-12-04
=======
Morning -> shoot!!!! woke up around 8! faster call back home, dad's
birthday~! well, greet him as I normally do :D big big boy
already my dad, be good, ya? hoho
Noon -> continue my "Project B0113" + anime burning, roomie finally reached back EP, wah sooooo long time no see, she'll sit for final tomorrow, ops! didn't I tell you she's june intake student?
Evening -> ym from Sze Sze, they'll come fetch me around 7 instead, so I no need walk all the way to their place :P

TO BE CONTINUED...

christmas........

2004-12-23T18:06:00.000+08:00

exchange xmas present with zie tieng just now, hope you like mine hehe, blue blue dolphin + crystal ball, well I like it though :P

sigh...... gamma year = lonely xmas, ne? with all housemates gone (either go home or got "plan" :P) by tomorrow noon; my yet-to-return roomate; my heng tai couples that go else where etc (of course I can't be such a spot light lo right? hoho~), well...... I'll just stay back in EP then *grins*

dad, your birthday coming soon as well huh, sorry for not being there with you all again :P

decided to attend seniors' xmas party again on sunday evening (26th), second time being togather for xmas, hopefully I will really really enjoy it hehe

hmmm.......... tomorrow = friday huh, perhaps I should go out for a walk as well

TO BE CONTINUED...

back to MLK

2004-12-20T20:19:00.000+08:00

1st day for my gamma sem 3, well, nothing different, just that I'm fatter + round face + meat meat body T-T ate too much chocolate during break sigh

I'm darker now, since my family came down with me so we walked too much under the hot sun, even a bit fever just now, too bad.... my wolf will come MMU and stay in EP soon enough, sure very syok 1 hehe, I hope

well, btw where is my dear roomie? how cruel she left me alone here T-T... hipefully she'll be back by thursday, we wanna exchange present right? :P and we said we gonna yamca togather with monkey right? :D

ryan, thanks for your "yami no matsuei" hehe, my yet another belated birthday present, really appreciate it

so, I'll join seniors' xmas celebration on sunday, but what about eve and christmas? not sure what to do yet hmmm.......

* bonus, wolf's drawing that I love the most >^.^< , took from his Form 3 Pendidikan Seni's sketch book, the left-bottom side a bit strange, because of the light, well of course the original drawing was even better, next time I'll try scan instead

TO BE CONTINUED...

mere rubbish....

2004-12-10T21:11:00.000+08:00

yeap, really felt that recently those I posted were nothing but mere rubbish, all nonsense, perhaps I really gradually forgot the reason why I set up this blog, huh?...

well, those story telling + photo combination were sucks, with lame skill of mine, plus I even felt upset just because of few comments I read... I'm the lowest after all... I AM the one who allow others to post up their comments, yet I AM the one who get pissed + feel blue after reading what the wrote, lowest, indeed...

come to think of it, why I took those pictures? is it to show others how I am now? is it to tell them I am all fine and happily enjoying myself? or could it be that I wanna simply post up someting here to show others that I really enjoy blogging soooo much? Wakaranai, I don't know at all

Shinky, sorry for being rude, about those comments you posted; Kazuya, thanks for your advice; and for the rest of you who are reading this crap of mine, thanks and sorry for wasting your precious time

From...
------------------------------
Amanda, Chong Nyuk Cheng, Kitsune, Fox, Watanabe Ayumi, Tsukishima Kitsune, Kurosawa Kitsune, Kizuna...... etc (pick whichever name you know, arigatou)

Hanami edited

2004-12-09T09:16:00.000+08:00

as stated, flowers~

* used of different settings

* all from the club house, by the swiming pool

TO BE CONTINUED...

BLM Club House

2004-12-08T21:20:00.000+08:00

Went to BLM club house with mum to fetch our Wolf just now, took some pictures, well….. not nice though

Side view of the pond (at the right wing of the main entrance)

Pond, left wing

Lobby of the club house

Hallway to the café

Took this one away from the swimming pool

OK, this time upload 5 of them

TO BE CONTINUED…

baado paku

2004-12-08T08:30:00.000+08:00

actually we went to 2 other places on the 1'st day (Crocodile Farm + Craft & Cultural Center) but those crocodiles were nothing but dead meat, all too lazy, not excited at all, plus expensive entrance... RM15, needa pay extra for cameras (taht's why we didn't bring along) and they even charged more on foreigners, RM25 omg!!!; while the craft center.... it's actually more like hand craft seling center.... duh

proceed with the 2nd day then, 1st we went to the Bird Park (located near Kisap, it's not within the map but I managed to locate it some how, drive towards the Perdana Gallery from Kuah town, and you'll see the building on your left hand side just few more km later after you pass te golf club)

white parrot, we can hold them and do anything we want, not chained, well this is a naughty one, it bite T-T...

captain wolf with his side kick >^.^<

mum with the green one, this lil buddy is totally opposite from the white, very gentle very tamed

parrots, again

...... forgot the name

my aunt, near the pond

my parents, pond

lovey dovey parrot couple =))

I thought I didn't manage to take theirs, a bit too high from me ^_^"

this buddy was too shy.... I waited there for some time, then only I managed to see its face ^_^"

forgot the name, again....

that's all I wanna share from the bird park, for now, I might post the rest next time, well ...... my digicam out of battery... T-T..... wolf, you DID take others' pic right?

TO BE CONTINUED...

2nd, Oriental Village

2004-12-08T01:02:00.000+08:00

ORIENTAL VILLAGE = our 2nd stop for Langkawi trip, located at the north-west area (near Pantai Kok), free entrance, c’mon, visit there next time if you are free, nice sceneries (best for outing, my photographing maniac friends~ eherm :P)

This is the shop where I bought my new cap from, well, will upload my pic with the new cap on next time, not now, since I don’t have it yet :D

Map of the OV, sorry if it is too small, hehe in fact I know it is ^_^”

…… can someone tell me what kind of fruit/ etc might it be?

Side entrance of Mizumi (means “lake”)Restaurant, I though I would have my lunch there, but too bad they only had simple maki (those wrapped with seaweed, eg wasabi maki & kappa maki) plus some bentou (set meal), sigh… plus my dad dislike jap foods, so… we had it at the Chinese restaurant instead (Fook Look Chinese Opera Restaurant, they got nightly opera performances there)

Front view (main entrance) of Mizumi restaurant, photo taken from the red color bridge

Side view of Mizumi restaurant

I took it while waiting for my parents + my aunt outside a shop, not very nice though, sigh….

This is the white bridge that linked to the Chinese restaurant I mentioned back then, I chose this angle because I felt that I might wanna modify the photo then add something else inside there next time

We went for the cable car trip (available within the OV itself as well) after lunch, too bad the pictures are not with me now, I’ll see whether I can upload them next time, that’s all for now I think, so ciao~

TO BE CONTINUED…

more on UNDERWATER WORLD

2004-12-08T00:29:00.000+08:00

First of all, lemme state something clear since most of my friends also confused about it, actually the UNDERWATER WORLD is not an open sea area for us to dive and take pictures, well if you want something like that, why don’t take a ride to Pulau Payah? It’s just about 30 minutes’ journey if you depart from Langkawi jetty, we had such chance but…. well, next time.

OK, hmmmm actually UNDERWATER WORLD is but more like a giant aquarium with underwater tunnels (made of glasses) for us tourist to take a look on those creatures such as sharks/ other giant fishes/ etc that swam around us, hehe :P here you go, more fishy fishy pics >^.^<

Since my friend Shinky asked for starfish’s photo, well here yar go, kinda blur though, gomen

Shark, it swam slowly back then, my bro even record it down using dad’s DVcam

Some kind of weird turtle, with spiky shield + spiky head, hmmm…..

We saw whole group of them, forgot the name though

Another kind of shark, baby shark I meant

Looked like flower

yet another wierd fish

Well, I’ll continue with other places I went next time, not really in blogging mood now, stupid IE error ate up my draft that I didn’t manage to save… T-T

TO BE CONTINUED…

belated love letter from langkawi~

2004-12-06T20:46:00.000+08:00

hehe, miss me? went to Langkawi with family on 4th and also the 5th, well, we drove all the way to Kuala Kedah around 5.30am (!!!) and took the 7am ferry, damn cold... thanks to my dad's friend, we manage to use dear X-Trail 8970 to travel around the island, of course my dad was the one who drove; while I was the navigator hehe, thanks to my so-called "read and analyze map inside the moving car without feeling ill" ability haha, I'm crazy now :P

as usual, now I'm gonna share some photo with yar hehe :D, I took those picturer below from the UNDERWATER WORLD there, our first stop, which located at the south-west area (Pantai Cenang) of the island, it's a realy nice place; too bad we didn't manage to get really nice and cool pics, most of them were useless, all blur, not sure why, according to dad it might due to the glasses they used, even my dad's DVCam was unable to capture those water creatures' real colors clearly, sigh......... wasted...

sea dragon, luckily all 3 of us (me, wolf, and dad) also managed to get extremly clear photo/ dv of them :P

wahhhh giant lobster?!?!?........ hehe, waited for about 10 minutes before it finally show its face from rocks

aiks.... i was planning to focus only on the white flower thingy though, ei fish "pendatang asing" kacau lo..... *grins*

this guy can be found near the Koi pond there, the one, and only

Koi, I remember other visitors were trying to feed them, well we used such great chance to snap as much as we could since they all (Koi) also surfaced and rushed to the feeding area, chance!!

turtle's statue, near the turtle pond, yeap I know the image is not evenly distributed, but I planned to modify and put something else inside there next time :P

OK~! that's all from the UNDERWATER WORLD, and that's all from me, for now *grins*

TO BE CONTINUED...

things within my current house :D

2004-12-03T15:55:00.000+08:00

hmmm........... hehe here goes another photo session :P they are all within the current house we stay, not the BLM one hehe :D

eherm, a corner of my desk -> the bear bear (from Cheng Hui + Wan Ying, my alpha's birthday present), some MMU textbooks, the jigsaw puzzle (from Huey Ling, Yan Chuin, and Pek Yin, they handed it over to me after Form 5 SPM's final paper :D) arigatou minna

......... bro's (Wolf's) desk, forever messy, c'mon...

bro's PC desk, but now since I'm home so I use his PC from time to time as well hehe, take turns download anime, yeah altec lansing rock!

my jigsaw puzzle, bought it after SPM, now can be found in the living room

aiks, trophy collection hehe, my bro's, photo 1

bro's trophy collection photo 2

finally, my trophy collection...... plus some of Wolf's T-T.....

this is a portion of the living room <-> books panel's divider, my dad designed it last time (yeah you rock, dad!), if we turn left at the end then we'll see the dining corner + kitchen, well there are some other places other than these, but put it aside for now

hehe, took this photo while my black cat was sleeping >:) hehe, photo 1

close up of my kawaii neko sama, photo 2~

red Kembara PEH 5323, see you in Emerald Park starting from June of 2005 hehehe, yeah no more "Cepat" ekspress :D

TV set + the divider, light off, can you see the giant speakers?

ok, end of the current session :D

TO BE CONTINUED...

sin min sin min

2004-12-03T09:10:00.000+08:00

yesterday was my bro's final judgement (SPM last paper hehe :P), followed mum went fetch him, brought along my digicam, wanna try take some snap of my dear Sin Min High, well since I'm no longer a student of it plus errrr the clothes I wore was totally against the rules, so all I could do was stand near the main gate there and simply snap snap snap hehe

from here you can see [CENTER PART] the teachers' room + the library 2nd floor [/CENTER PART], [LEFT HAND SIDE] Block B, I spent my Form 1 + Form 3 + Form 5 there [/LEFT HAND SIDE], [RIGHT HAND SIDE] Block A, never use that block, too bad..... [/RIGHT HAND SIDE]

welcome the Sin Min, hehe, main gate there, with the logo + school name, background there is our dear Block A + some of the basketball court (the one with the silverish roof)

main entrance area + morning session's parking area, a brief view from afar, hehe :P I remember last time we always lepak there before our classes, Entry 1 har..... so nice, with so many trees, gentle wind, hehe :P also needed for my so-called "shinobi job" =))

hmmmmm one of those new workers I think, too bad I forgot his name hehe ^_^", he kept on looking at my digicam when I took our school's pic, so I also took his after getting permission, errrr "pakcik namer aper pakcik?" :P >.<>

close up of the school name (near teachers' room there), 12x zoom hehe, thnaks to my digicam, else kinda impossible for me to get this pic :P

close up of Block B, I focused on those classrooms I used :P again 12x zoom

my brother and his friend, after SPM, walked towards our car from entrance there, hmmm guess which is our dear Wolf hehehe, 9x zoom

hmmmm that's all for now I think, really wanna get more pic la...... missed Sin Min High now :P ciao~

TO BE CONTINUED...

Winter... (Fuyu no kiyoku)

2004-12-01T23:06:00.000+08:00

moshi moshi, found this old story of mine when I was browsing my PC at home, hmmmmm how long had it been? 3 years ago? well, something like that I think, I started it after SPM (2001) when I helped my brother to edit his chinese essays, while doing so I told myself "why don't I write my own then other than editing his?", so........ tada!! :P

ths is the Winter, the 4th part of my story, the one with the most detailed explaination and storyline so far, hmmmm got some part still under construction though, well, for those who can read chinese, it's all yours ->

冬の忆
=====

冬天了！虽然我不太喜欢寒冷的严冬，却酷爱倚在窗边呆呆看着晶莹的雪花轻轻地、慢慢地自天而绛，再温柔地把大地抱在怀里，白茫茫的，给人一种恨不得马上扑倒在地上打滚的感觉。说穿了也不为什么，只因对我而言，轻舞的雪花太像春天里东京那盛开之后就凋落的樱花了。右京... 你还好吗？

当年和右京分手后，我就只身来到了正值冬季的枫叶之都，除了一些必需品和少得可怜的现金以外，跟随我的就只有一颗伤痕累累的心，和一段挥之不去的心酸回忆。当众人都在欢天喜地，为圣诞佳节而忙时，我在一间名叫 Lapsus memoriae的高级酒室当女侍，同时也成功地挤入当地某间大学修读音乐系，半工半读，打算独自疗伤。还好，我认识了乐天派的 Sherry，也开始学会跳社交舞，伤口才渐渐结了疤，只是偶尔还会隐隐作痛。

这一天，酒室来了一位雍容华贵的妇人，明显的，她曾接受过严格的仪态训练，一举一动都是那么的自然动人，脸上毫无皱纹，肌肤白里透红，风采犹在，年轻时必然是个倾倒众生的大美人。奇怪的是，她一进门就不断上下打量我，还多次欲言又止。当我带着 menu来到她桌边时，她望了望我的 nametag ，问：“新来的？Sherry又没来上班吗？”。“她请病假溜去旅行了，五天后才回来。”，不简单，竟然连神龙见头不见尾的 Sherry也认识，该是老常客了。

她以依然柔滑如丝的纤纤玉手，优雅地接下我递给她的 menu，却不打算翻看，只把 menu轻放在桌上，闭目沉思了一会，突然挑战似地望着我：“你认为我该点些什么？”。天啊！我不会品酒，怎么挑？那贵妇像是看穿了我的窘态，温柔地对我笑了一笑：“别担心，我无所谓，你喜欢什么就点什么。”；我只好设法在 menu上找出一个比较好听的名称：“夫人，就来杯 Martini，好吗？”。

ok, that's all for now hehe, feel free to stab/ say anything you want, ciao~

TO BE CONTINUED...

some photo edited

2004-12-01T11:49:00.000+08:00

took this photo of mine around 3am on 28th November 2004, yeap hehe, it's after yamca with Moses + Lawrence + Chak them all, the white cap is my birthday present from Mr. Fun (shinky), thanks

my photo during beginning of November, the one with orange color spec, some people says I look different with and without it :P

the oil painting in my room, new house there

another oil painting, my brother claimed it and put inside his room, sigh... actually I was the one who noticed and chose it :(

chair at 2nd floor's family area, oriental style, my brother always sit there whenever he wants to study etc

Miss Lizzie, Susan's Siamese cat, photo took via hp, kawaii???

my dear black cat, too bad she never wanna face the camera, this is the best I could get ^_^"

and lastly, it's not a photo, but sketch of the clothes I wore on my birthday (Au Yunn Hill Resort outing, with Jeremy couple + Fun), drew using MS Paint, hehe

TO BE CONTINUED...

home sweet home

2004-11-28T23:03:00.000+08:00

hehe yeap yeap, 11.30am bus, depart on time from Melaka, whole day also heavy rain la, so cold...... but who care la since I finally reach home already around 9pm just now hoho~ yeap, such long journey right? but biasa liao la

yo~ my cats~ wah why you all now so meat meat liao 1 geh? aiyak I though you all will miss me soooo much until slim slim, but I was wrong then, sigh.....; hey mum's cooking so nice la, really so nostalgic ler hehe; yo~yo~ my PC~ bro's altec lansing~ my PS2~ I'm home now! tadaima!!! :D

aiks...... whole thing macam no meaning 1 ler, all craps, sigh, nevermind la tomorrow go lake side there take some nice pic and upload them hehe, ciao for now~ Kingdom Hearts' time >^.^<

TO BE CONTINUED...

yamca, 4th of gamma

2004-11-28T02:35:00.000+08:00

yeap, as stated above, went yamca again, this time with Moses (another fox), Lawrence (hamster) , Chak (crow), and 2 other guys, hehehe we went zoo or something? =))

sorry har Moses, mafan you so much, if I knew then I won't ask you teman me go liao la..... made you walk here walk there, sorry sorry

btw, this Chak ko really geng la, talk talk talk about Matrix movies, walau don play play ah ppl ni Matrix pro lai ler, ppl wrote the story 1 ler =)) too bad I haven't watch, so know some don't know most of it, sigh, wait la I reach home use bro's PC watch *grins* yeah altec lansing hehe :D

oh ya also ngam ngam realize that actually our Sin Min class 5.1 punya Mr. Ricky Kuek Lian Ping is his friend's bf hehe, yeah go back can perli people liao loo, wait and see har Ricky :P

Lawrence, hmm............ I really look different w/out the orange color spec ah? hehe, sorry loo, a dino came yamca with you guys instead of leng luis hehe, paiseh paiseh, oh ya just now didn't really chat with you also ler, since we sat kinda far compared with me + Moses + Chak

hmmm.......... sigh, time flows like water huh, last night in Melaka, for Gamma sem 2, well, happy holidays~~

TO BE CONTINUED...

yeah~ bye bye final :D

2004-11-27T11:32:00.000+08:00

at last! my stupid final exam over liao lo, finally hehe, feel so refresh now *grins*

*look into the mirror* OMG I'm such a panda!!! T-T sigh, once reach home I must sleep like piggy already, now I don't feel like sleepy at all, over excited, of course la our nightmare KO already wor hehe

hmmm.......... what I'm gonna do for the limited time I left in Melaka here? shopping? no kaki plus no money liao la T-T... makan? eating my lunch now. yamca? aiya now still day time la =)), talk craps? who I'm gonna talk with since my roomate also going back hometown? ICQ? sien already la... anime? yes!!!! naruto 110-111 on hand hehe >'o'<, ok la watch naruto after I finish this crap here

yeap, I'm going back tomorrow noon hehe, but for sure at night only can reach SP liao la.... the so-called "Cepat Ekspress" is actually forever lambat 1, well-knowned fact right? Make sure I recharge my batteries else I'll bored to dead without my dear walkman then

well, since I said I found no reason joining the BBQ tonight, anything I can do ah other than YM ICQ anime mp3 forums yada yada, sigh......... no idea now

ok la, don't know what to write already, ciao~

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4++ in the morning

2004-11-26T04:25:00.000+08:00

hmmmmmm............ can't sleep, shall I blame the coffee or myself since I slept too much this noon? :P

my TDB final paper coming really soon enough, 9o' clock in the morning, duh sien la, stupid final, sigh

can't wait for holidays, wanna go home and hugggggggg my cats >^.^< , miss them so much la, all so cute one hehe, and of course la I miss my family also la, wonder how long it's been since the last time I 'fight' with my own brother already hehe, yo bro~ what yar doing there now?

hey btw x-mas coming soon huh, wonder what shall I buy for friends..... but for sure bankrap again, hehe, hey but I like the feeling, exchange presents, celebrate with friends, talk craps togather, laughing togather.... etc, really feel so good I spent my Alpha's x-mas with x-housemates last time, exchanged presents, stayed up whole night sharing our dreams etc, oh ya even watched vcd (if not mistaken), since that time everyone also just came back from Alpha Sem 2 holiday hehe, fo of course will have even more topics to crap with lo =)

as for my Beta's x-mas........ man, that time I really thought I had to be alone, since something happened last time, reason = secret AGAIN heheh I'm so sly huh :D, but in the end seniors invited me to their BBQ party, and well, I DID try to enjoy myself there eventhough I still feel sad about the previous incident, I think all of them knew about it as well, sigh....... siapa yang banyak mulut sangat ni >.<, I remember back then, some of them really wanna korek info from me, but the tahan also, since I told them I wanna have a nice face there hehe...... thanks for being considerate

now, wonder what will happen on Gamma's :-? hehe, well, wait and see >^.^<

aiks, now don't say la, that's all for now I think, OK focus on my notes, hehe, goukaku suru!

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A song for elle

2004-11-25T16:45:00.000+08:00

found this song from taiwanese forum hehe, from a guy to the girl he likes ;)

LeT's Go
我來秀一秀
這不是我的表演秀
只是我內心世界不停播的radio
想睡的快起來快快的坐起來
千萬不要錯過這個歷史性的這一幕
而世界真奇妙又地球真的非常小
誰也沒有預料透過朋友介紹加上平時禱告
我的白雪公主終於脫去神秘面罩
你的身影不停在我腦海跑
就像奧運聖火一直不停在燃燒
害我心裡撲通撲通撲通跳
逼我熱的脫下外套
鼓起勇氣不再害臊
start to design 追你的圈套
如果你沒跌進這善意的圈套
不管耶穌媽祖默罕默德玉皇大帝聖至麻原章恍宋七力都為我哀悼

好不好好不好
作我的女朋友好不好
一切只要你的一聲好
我就和你吃飯吃到老
要不要要不要
當我的little sweet要不要
一切只要你的一聲好
我就陪你陪到天涯海角

隨著秋後的寒意冷風伴隨暗戀的涵義
射出一道溫暖強心劑
不斷編織的記憶全都全都是天意
洋溢幸福的空氣相互窺視的心已聯繫

我漸漸發現到愛情就像瓶毒藥
在我內心處發酵讓我不時在傻笑
我慢慢感覺到地雷在體內引爆
有種衝動想大叫告訴你我真的很可靠
我的身高沒有jordan高(那又怎樣那不怎麼樣)
我的職業不是老饕但是我人真的很好
功能更不少興趣is把你餵到飽(大家一起吃到飽)
專長替你穿外套(好暖)
疲倦了給你來點慰勞
遇到麻煩....~我讓你依靠讓你靠沒什麼大不了 (這是任賢齊的老歌)
大不了甚至無怨無悔幫你包書套
心中垃圾幫你掃一掃
你問我愛你有多深 (這個歌更老)
這麼深冬天我也願意化作暖暖包給你抱(這麼窩心)
就是因為我愛你這麼深

好不好好不好
當我的女朋友好不好
一切只要你的一聲好
我就和你吃飯吃到老
要不要要不要
作我的little sweet要不要
一切只要你的一聲好
我就陪你陪到天涯海角

隨著秋後的寒意冷風伴隨暗戀的涵義
射出一道溫暖強心劑
不斷編織的記憶全都全都是天意
洋溢幸福的空氣相互窺視的心已聯繫

現在給妳1分鐘思考
30秒來打草稿讓你決定好不好
妳是c加升記號我是d加降記號
就在五線譜遇到譜出完美e大調

愛情盡頭我們一起找
愛情電影我們一起導
靈異相片我們一起照
行行好來個擁抱
這麼好的男人哪裡找常在你我的心中

好不好好不好
答應我好不好
要不要要不要
little sweet 要不要
只要一聲好吃飯吃到老......

好不好作我的女朋友好不好
一切只要妳的一聲好我就陪妳陪到天荒地老

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Something from the past

2004-11-24T20:09:00.000+08:00

<28-10-2004>
...........................
I get nothing, but heartache and tears
That's why I chose to run away
All I want is a new start, new life, and
Someone that will accept me for who I really am
I hate masks, yet I hate it even more
The fact you just can't face the truth,
When you finally see the silent hidden face of mine,
After all these years......

saw my 'poem' above when I view my friendster profile again, hmm..... it's been about a month huh, so fast, that time I was so down, so blue, I'll keep the reason as a secret hehe, but some of you already knew though

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About the Fox~

2004-11-24T13:08:00.000+08:00

Last night (actually this very early morning la) Hamster asked me, how come I use Fox instead of Vixen since I'm a girl, hmmm..... how to answer this, actually I also not very sure ler, perhaps I always wanna be a boy :P but then the nick Fox really far more cooler than Vixen ler, plus errr..... you all know la, let it be manderin or cantonese when we talk about Vixen the others sure think about 'something' else ler.... "hu2 li2 jing1", sigh...... kasihan we all female from Fox families, sigh, I'm innocent one ler >x.x<

BTW, last night I really should find some spies and record down such exciting and rare event at burger stall there ler hehehehe >:D can't stop laughing =)) sorry har no offense or anything one har hehehe, sigh, guys really so syok har, can play like that, for us girls it's really soooooo hard to find people that willing to play with you like that lo, if near us got also might not same channel, sigh, lucky you guys

P/S: walau eh just now my mind really blank, die la computer graphic :((

* another photo, of course it's not by me la hehe, I like this 1, remind me of my oil painting hehe

* Hui Ping (girl in white), my old friend since standard 2, now in Aus, not sure still available or not la hehe, really can't stop comparing her with Need for Speed girls hehe

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exam exam

2004-11-24T02:03:00.000+08:00

1st paper coming, less than 7 hrs, sigh, really no exam mood at all, can't help thinking about holidays :((

I think I most probably won't join the BBQ on 27th, might spend my last night of Gamma Sem 2 with other gangs and hmmm yamca? yeah yamca yamca haha, but for sure I at most also drink drinks only la, at most :P need on diet liao la sigh, meat meat already, chubby fox >^.^< hmmmmm cute also =)) since when I become sooooooo thick face already 1 har?

sigh, stupid computer graphic, I really see until blur la....

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Misc.

2004-11-23T01:26:00.000+08:00

Get my bus ticket not long ago, finally, going back on 28th noon, needa count down?

Hmm..... shall I go for my alpha group's gathering on 27th night itself? I don't know, class 29/30, so many things happened, I gained something, and lost something in return as well, well, Law of Conversion I guess. I met my very first gang there (we faced some problem and disband, but I have to admit that being with you all will always be one of my precious memories, for all my life), I aimed for the top when I was there, I set rivals for myself, I was twisted, I never ever wanna return to the past anymore, such dark and endless nightmares... I promised myself I won't escape, I will face it all proud and bravely, let it be my past, my pain, you name it. I want to slowly erase my past, the old me that's not even loved by me myself at all. I always wished I am a phoenix, yea, the kind that will die and rebirth again whenever it's severly injured, shine even more and stronger than ever.

My 1st paper for Gamma Sem 2 final is coming really soon, in about 30hrs' time, yet my mind is still all messed, don't know what I read at all, blur, wonder how and why. There are too many things in my mind I think.

Found some nice MV these days, really nice, too bad I don't plan to upload it all here :D Well, those EPian gals, grab them all while you can, ok?

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Test test! I'm from Neptune =))

2004-11-20T23:04:00.000+08:00

Get this test from Raymond's blog hehe, or shall I say steal instead? hehe, share share mah

Normally people say gals = from venus while guys = from mars, why don't yar try this out ans see where you originally from? hehe

ID Peace~! >^.^<

You Are From Neptune

You are dreamy and mystical, with a natural psychic ability.
You love music, poetry, dance, and (most of all) the open sea.
Your soul is filled with possibilities, and your heart overflows with compassion.
You can be in a room full of friendly people and feel all alone.
If you don't get carried away with one idea, your spiritual nature will see you through anything.

What Planet Are You From?

Hmm......... well, ya I love dreaming hehe, about mystical + natural psychic power ah? hmmm don't know ler :D

Yeap indeed I like music, too bad I can't sing T-T; poetry is suka suka play play la, simply tembak hehe; I wanna dance too, but last time EMiNA Cosplay that time I really messed up la..... sigh, stage fright, need overcome it no matter what; open sea ah hmmm... no comment

Possibilities + compassion, not sure

Be with friendly people but feel alone -> depends, see mood, see who they are, see topic whether ngam channel, see which FOX i am that time =))

As for the last 1, err...... don't know lei

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Yamca~

2004-11-19T13:25:00.000+08:00

Went yamca last night, hmmmmm if go BB Ice House also can count in then I think it should be the 3rd time for Gamma year, right? Think so gua hehe >^.^<

At first I just wanna pass anime to a friend, then 'shun bian' yamca yamca a while lo, mana tau sit there talk and listen craps for 4 hrs!!! Believe it or not man..... 4 hrs?! =))

Ya thouse who know who I am but not really familiar enough with me sure will shock when they see this, "Hey man, you kidding? That fox... yamca 4 hrs? Oh god!! Eat wrong medicine kah?!?!" =))

Actually I always based on moods + people + time + etc 1 la, so even my closest friends also might be able to know just few faces of mine for whole life hehe, yeap yeap I'm multi-faced haha, heard of Naruto right? Then you sure know about Kyuubi, hey I didn't say I'm such a powerful FOX like him la, but at least I'm Kyuugao, 9-faced hehehe :P

So, slowly la then maybe I will reveal more and more gua I think hehe :P

Wah I really can crap, soooooo many OUT OF TOPIC craps haha, hmmm.... I think last night's yamca gang was quite nice lo, I saw them all before, and some how I know who they are; while they really got no idea who the heck I am before this =)) hehe, this call observation + analyzing + memory + reasoning ler buddy hehe, nice knowing you all lo, although you might won't see this hehe

END, for now

* Bonus, the Koi pond's photo I took from Au Yun Hill Resort during 14th's outing hehe, else feel too blank liao la, this blog

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Eherm.... poem, mine!!

2004-11-18T15:16:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to me
How I wish you are here
Right beside me
Watching over me
Whispering thousand words
On my very special day

How I ever forget
Your gentle smiles
Your moonish eyes
Your every little thing

You are the one
Who chose to shine on me
When I was nothing
But mere lone star

You gave me strength to live on
When I sank
Into the very bottom
Of my dark and lonely world

How I wish I could be with you
Now and then
Forever and ever

Wishing upon the falling stars
If there is a limit
Of how far I can walk by your side
Please, some how
Let me be the last to know
For I will treasure
All the time we shared
Without worrying about the end

* ("BIRTHDAY WISHES" by me~!!!!)

I wrote it during my birthday count down on 13th night itself. Don't know why, but I felt I really want to produce something,something that might be able to remind me of such wonderful day,and then... tada~! Came up with this so-called 'poem' of mine >^.^<

Well... after that I sot sot copy and paste it on both my friendster bulletin and profile, wah...... suddenly all my friends also shocked! Asking "hey who's that guy? miss heroin ^^ " oh oh..... oh crap!!

Ehrm..... actually I never thought of specially dedicate it to anyone at all ler, that time I was listening to FFX-2 Jade's "Thousand words" (Orchestra Version) + Kingdom Heart Utada's "Simply and clean", it's really so nice that even me also became sentimental already hehe, so, with some flash back from FF games + KH + real life memories, I wrote this crappy thing hehe

And then, just now something really make me kinda angry ler.... a friend of mine copy and paste it on his blog (with my permisson, ya) PLUS he reply my poem leh!!! walau, it sounded like I wrote it specially for him and then he's answering it, OMG!!! Kenot like that la, delete delete delete, sigh..It's kinda cruel but, even if someone wanna asnwer it, I also hope that it will be 'someone' else, hehe.. sorry la my friend *bow down*, I'm sure you know what I meant hehe ^_^"

BACK TO TOPIC -> hmm....... but then, perhaps I should really try to express what I couldn't say last time while chances are still available, right? Atashi, ganbarimasu!

Thanks for reading this crap :P

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First Post~

2004-11-18T14:38:00.000+08:00

Hi, welcome to MY realm, the place where I dream, I voice out, and I go for it :P

As you can see, this is my very first post, well I heard of blogs and I did pay visit to others since some times ago, but still I was too lazy to type and publish my daily things on web hehe

Actually I wrote diaries, yet I always lost them hoho~ Maybe it is better since I can just forget all those unpleasent past, it's really hurt sooo much to keep all those bad memories within you, owww such burden, I had enough, dude~

Er...... eto..... that's all for now I think hehe :D

P:S/ err.... in case you all wonder what Kitsune means, come on la.... my nick in japanese, meaning fox! hehe

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